Something Old, Something New

I was looking at all of my old accounts and happened upon this blog. I remember creating it in the 7th or 8th grade, and believing that it could change people's lives. I read through the last several posts I had made, and I was pleasantly surprised. Despite my age, I actually had a lot of interesting things to say. And even more surprising, I share a lot of those same views now. It's funny how you can think that you've changed SO much over the years, but you haven't. Sure, I no longer look like an emo kid who wants to kill people, but I had the same thoughts then as I do now.

We can't change who we are. We can only change how others perceive it.

With that said, I think I might get back into blogging! As an introvert I spend a lot of time up in the old thinker, so it helps to write it down. Even when no one is reading.

Monster

Here's to my Friends... (You know who you are.)

What makes your best friends the "best"? I've always wondered that. Also, when do you know that they're more than just another one of your friends? I always figured it was this unconditional friendship. I feel like you know someone's your best friend when they will do almost anything for you no questions asked. I think it's pretty special when you find someone like that.

Do I think I have "best friends"? I'm not sure. There are people I would consider MY best friends, but I really don't know about the other way around. Frankly, I don't really care that much. I feel like it's not worth all the worry. You're never gonna get really close with someone if you're constantly fearing that they don't like you as much as you like them. I'm POSITIVE there are people out there who don't like me as much as I like them. But that's LIFE. I spend time around the people that make me happy.

Some people might argue that there could be conflict in that. For example, what if you get into a situation where you're putting a lot more into the friendship than the other person is? I have a pretty obvious answer:

If you're CLEARLY putting way more into the friendship than the other person, then they're probably not making you that happy in the long run. And all I'm saying is you should spend time with the people that make you HAPPY.

My advice: Don't get too caught up in worrying if people like you or not. Chances are, if they don't like you, you'll know. Just do what makes you happy.

To all the friends of mine who are reading this: Thanks. I value every one of you SO much. To those of you who I text WAY too much (you know who you are ;P),  it's just because you make me really happy. To those of you who I don't talk to as much as you would like me to, take initiative! I probably don't realize it!

I love you all <3

- Monster

Biracial Oreos

Buenos Dias/Tardes/Noches.
I'm not in a very philosophical mood right now, but I am however in the mood to talk about myself. I was daydreaming during class today (as I generally do), and I was thinking about the things I say on a regular basis. I also started thing about the things I regularly do. It was pretty interesting, so I hope I inspire you to do the same thing.

Commonly Used Phrases:

"Be who you wanna be" - I am a big believer in encouraging people to be who they wanna be, and do what makes them happy. But picture me saying this like a stoner-hippie.

"Just go for it" - Stole this one from a friend some time last year. It has more to do with the sarcastic encouragement towards others.

"It's a BIG deal." - I tend to say this a lot around people when they're trying to be very nonchalant. I then return it in a very serious tone with "No. Its a really BIG deal."

"Hey Girl/Yes Ma'am/Yes Sir/Girlfraand/etc." - I evidently enjoy calling people by titles.

"Aight" - I get very bored with saying "yes", or "ok".

"You wanna go?!" - This one I use a LOT. It's kind of a challenge in a jokingly way. It's like "do you want to fight me? Right here. Right now. I can take you."

Other Stuff I Say/Do:

I have a specific type of dancing that like to do a lot where I move my hips and torso and arms around in a very smooth way.

I LOVE high-fiving people.

I recently have gotten in the habit of doing a slowmotion punch.

I made up the phrase "Walk with purpose". It's the idea that you should walk everywhere you go knowing your destination, and showing it.

I also made up the named "Biracial Oreos" for the oreos that are half black and half white.

Well those are all the things I can think of now. But it's really interesting to think about. Especially since it wasn't too many years ago that I was saying things like "Coolio" and "Awesometastic". I think it's worth thinking about what kinds of things YOU do, and why that makes you an individual.

As I like to say, "Be who you wanna be!!!"

- Monster

Music is Passion

As seen in my bio, I play the bass guitar. I've been religiously playing for a little over a year now, but I first started playing about a year and a half ago. A lot of people don't consider that to be a very long amount of time. And I'm okay with that. Because in my opinion, it's never about how LONG you've done something. It's more about how much time you spend with it and how much passion you have for it.
Here's an example. I played the violin when I was little. I took lessons for 3 1/2 years. If you think about it, 3 1/2 years is a very long time to be playing an instrument at an early age. I was good at it, but I wasn't GREAT. And I didn't have enough passion to WANT to be great. Therefore, I didn't excel. I didn't strive for greatness.
A few instruments and several years later, I picked up the bass. I knew absolutely NOTHING about the instrument, but I figured it would be fun to play. I had an interest in rock music, and I liked the sound of the bass from what I had heard, but I didn't know anything about it. For a good 4-5 months, I hardly even played it.

Then something happened. I had a change in mind.

Because of a class I was taking in school, I was all of a sudden being exposed to new parts of the instrument. I was hearing new bands, I was learning to play with other people, and suddenly I realized how much I liked playing. At that time, I was good at the bass guitar. I was just fine. I had good technique, I had good ideas, etc. But up until that point I lacked the drive and passion. And then it happened that one day, when I sat down with my bass and just started playing whatever I felt. I began to realize I was capable of a lot more than I had realized. So I began playing as much as possible. I still hadn't had a teacher, but I didn't need one. I had all of the online resources, I already knew basic music theory, and most importantly, I had the PASSION.

It doesn't matter how much work you put into something if you don't have the drive and passion for it. Would I be a better player if I played everyday because someone TOLD me to, or because I WANTED to? I know everyone always says it's all about the effort you put in to something in order to get good at it. But I believe it's more than that. It's about the effort you voluntarily put into it that really counts. It's the voice in your head that says:

I CAN DO BETTER.

- Monster

Monsters?

Howdy y'all. Second post of the morning. That's because I just redesigned my blog. It used to be purple, and fun, and soft. The name USED to be "We Are Here Too". But now, things have changed.

As you can see, I've gone with the title "Monsters in my Clozet". Why did I choose this? It took a lot of thought. I was trying to come up with a little bit of inspiration. What is the one thing that every child fears? Monsters under the bed, or monsters in the closet. And what is the ONE thing that holds back EVERYONE??

FEAR.


And my goal is to get rid of that fear factor. I want to be the most fearless form of myself possible. And I can learn things from everyday life. It's simple, really. I don't like answering the phone. I especially don't like answering the phone when I don't know who's calling. Why is that? FEAR. A lot of people don't like watching scary movies, or going down dark allies, or meeting new people, etc. This is all because of fear. And unless you conquer that fear, you will be living your life in a bubble.

What are the little things that can make your day better? Or the little things you can do to improve yourself? What's so bad about being lonely?

I don't know all the answers. But I DO have a few ideas.

- MONSTER

Traffic...Red, green, or yellow?

I'm changing the feel of my blog a little bit. It's because i've been given a long time to think. I only have a handful of posts, but they were all directed towards an unknown audience. Then something occurred to me. The people that are reading this are probably people that I know. So I've decided I'm going to stop targeting my entries towards people out there in the open, and more towards the people right here at home. 


The first thing that came to mind is web traffic. If you don't know what that is, it's essentially the path that people on the internet take to wind up at your particular site. The goal is to have a ton of traffic coming from many different places, because that raises the chances of people actually reading it. But that's boring. 


All in all, I am going to start from scratch. Build up my traffic. And that's about it.

- This Is Me (for now.) 

T-Shirts for the Poor

Been spending the summer making a bunch of T-Shirt graphics. Here are a few of them:

Enjoy :)

- This Is Me